Single Mom - exhausted from everything...

Dear Single Mom,

I decide to talk about this subject because we all know so well that after a long heavy day at work or school & rush home, picking up your kids, feed them, help them with homeworks, bath time, and sometimes cook for the next day.

You are so exhausted by now & have no energy left for anything else... & with 5 hours of sleep (if we are lucky enough!), then we are ready to fight the next day...

We wonder ourselves if this will ever end or this is it for us?

We're looking at our co-workers having work for a happy hour drink...
We're looking at our neighbors to see how happy they are with their children, & we know that this is her second marriage...
We're looking at our how lucky she is to have a husband who adores her dearly & takes good care of their children... & he even helps out with chores at home... That's our cousin family...

& wonder how we get here and wonder will we ever going to get out of it????

Tears rolling down to our face & we don't bother to wipe it... what for? Its kind of feel good once we cry like that.. it hurts but so what... Nobody cares... Simply no one cares....

The car broke down & it's going to cost $300, where do we find that $300 EXTRA money when we live paycheck to paycheck...

& at night we wonder, how comes life can be so unfair....

We wonder if we will ever have a chance to meet someone that actually cares about us & our children... If we ever fall in love again... or if we ever HAVE anytime left to fall in love again... If we ever going to re-marry & have a real home like others... If we are ever going to get out of this & better our children life.... If we ever be able to take our kids to a real vacation like their friends did.....

Then we blame ourselves for the mistakes we have made..

We're drifting to sleep for 3 hours & then the alarm goes off....

We hurry out of bed, get the kids & just another day...

Another exhausted day that seems to have no future..

I'm sure if you have read this far, you know exactly what I mean & I'm sure some of you have been through this before....

I brought this up because YOU ARE NOT ALONE... All single moms are going through this... & I want to remind you all that we are fighters... We will fight for our children till the end... We are strong & we will continue to be strong for our chidlren...

We need to change the way we think about things... Instead of think about what we don't have or how unlucky our life have been.. Think of how blessing that we have our beautiful children... How blessing we are that they are healthy... How blessing we are to come home from work & see their beautiful smiles.... How blessing we are that WE ARE NOT ALONE.. We have them in our life & because of this, we will make it through with them.

So to us all, take a deep breath, think of the good things that our wonderful children have to offer us... Think of their smiles.. Think of the moment they run over & give us a big hug & kisses.... Will you trade that for anything else?

Probably NOT....

So to us all out there.. Have a fabulous day today.. & when you are going to bed, instead of how exhausted you are, think of the little one that just give you a big smile & a big kiss good nite... & you will know that deep down in your heart that it's really NOT a bad day after all.

Love always to all single moms out there.

Amanda
Los Angeles